About this song
- The first song on the record, and probably the heaviest for me to deal with; I feel really uncomfortable writing about it actually, as it was such a heavy, and really negative experience that I wrote this song about. Just over a year ago I was admitted to hospital after an attempted suicide, I’d been going through some really heavy emotional times, I wasn’t handling my life very well, I was drinking just about every day to the point where I couldn’t remember not being hungover, and along with that the nagging depression that I’ve had for as long as I can remember seemed to be getting increasingly unbearable. I put my friends through some really traumatic times, I overloaded them emotionally and felt like I was losing my grip on everything around me, including my relationship with my now ex-wife and my friendships with just about everyone. It’s really hard to explain how overwhelming seemingly insignificant occurrences became. I thought all my friends hated me, I was getting really behind in my work and letting a lot of people down on a regular basis both work-wise and, as I stated before, relationship wise. I drank myself into an emotional coma, and one night it all came to a head and I ended up in hospital, sedated and really, really alone. So I wrote this not long before we finished doing our demos as a release of sorts I suppose. It’s a really f—ed thing to put your friends through, doing something like that… It’s really, really f—ed, and extremely selfish; on the flip side though when you’re going through it, it feels like it’s the best option. For me it took something that bad for me to turn my way of thinking around and seek help, and to really step back and take a look at everything that was going on and try to turn it into something positive. - Joel Birch . User-contributed text is available under the Creative Commons By-SA License; additional terms may apply. — lastfm
